I’m exhausted. Have been for ages. I honestly don’t know how I make it through the days. I just keep at it, day in, day out. I’m like a robot, just fulfilling my programming. I can’t not continue. It’s Friday, I’ll have a couple days to recharge before heading into the fray again.
In my exhausted state, as I drive, I feel a pain in my head. I cock my head to one side in an attempt to vanquish the pain while still keeping the car on the road. As I do so, I drift off slightly. This road, this drive, it’s all automatic, my mind uses the idle cycles to show me something new.
So I thought what I’d do is on Sundays, I’d share a video recently taken by drive recorder, which may be interesting or which may be not interesting at all. Videos are saved in 5 minute chunks on the drive recorder, so there are hundreds of 5 minute videos to choose from at any time, and I choose by asking someone to pick a number. Maybe this will be the only time I do this, but maybe I will do it Kind Of Regularly.
This video was shot here in Takanezawa on September 24th. No, that wasn’t a Sunday, but I am posting this on a Sunday, so thpppppppt.
A new thing I’m gonna try doing is, all week, making a brief note of good things that I noticed, that happened to me, that I thought of, etc., and post them all here. A wee “it wasn’t all shit” post at the end of the week. So, without further ado:
When driving, a truck passes, and there’s a dramatic gust of wind through the open window, loud too, which synchs perfectly with the dramatic climax of the song you’re listening to.
Also when driving, when flight after flight of dragonfly approaches your car, wave after wave of them, matching with the nostalgic fade-out on the song you’re listening to.
Seeing a doctor who acknowledges that your illness is an illness, and not just a side effect of something else. Also when he can speak a little bit of English, which aids communication both ways.
Being able to feel sad, both for oneself and others. It’s good to have a degree of empathy.
David Tennant as Hamlet
feeling comfortable in one’s own clothes
manufactured boy bands
legs that feel like legs and not like heavy lumps of horrible melty flesh (this will only last as long as this cool spell does, but I’ll take what I can get)